A Penny For My Thoughts

Why Do I Find It Hard To Write The Next Line?

By Paul Wein

When I first started this column, I used to write installments whenever I had the chance. Sometimes, that was once a week, sometimes it was once a month – an sometimes – I went months without writing a single column. Then, as I grew, the column did as well – and it became a daily part of my life. But as of late – my writing has become less frequent again – and that is making me very upset.

For a myriad of different reasons, my daily column has become an almost once a week column again – and it is definitely not sitting well with me. I have enough ideas in my head for a thousand columns lately – the problem is that I simply don’t have the time on my hands that I used to have to write them.

Now that I work for OEM, my hours have become more and more unpredictable, and sometimes I even have to go in when I am supposed to be off. In addition to that, my social life has become a tad more hectic – with friends over the house on a daily basis. And if that is not enough to occupy me – there is my constant need to save civilization as we know it for those around me that constantly require my assistance. So with these and so many other distractions keeping me occupied – the column has suffered.

The worst part is that I am well aware that I have not been writing as much – and there is nothing I can do about it. I have noticed that the number of columns I have been writing lately are slowly dwindling – and the space between each column is slowly growing. And if that is not enough of a reminder – Arthur, who is an avid reader of my column – asked why I, as he put it, “am not thinking as much as I used to”.

On the contrary, I have been thinking more then ever – I just have not had the opportunity to put the thoughts I am thinking down on paper. If I had the ability to record what I think – I would have written one hundred thousand columns by now. But the problem I have is that a thought or idea for a column enters my head – and then either escapes when I finally have the time to sit at a keyboard – or becomes an outdated topic by the time I can write about it.

I think I am going to have to get back to my old ways of carrying my laptop to work with me – or at least taking a pad and pen with me everywhere I go so I can write down my thoughts before they escape. I am also going to start making sure that when I do have an idea – I find the time to write about it – before another column slips through my fingers.

“I bought a ticket to the world,
but now I've come back again.
Why do I find it hard to write the next line?
Oh I want the truth to be said.”

Spandau Ballet – True