Everyone has fears going into a relationship. Some people’s fears are not being good enough for the person they are with. My fear is being lied to or used – and Christine’s fear is me leaving her – or as she puts it – “going away”. While I can understand that she has fears – because we all do when we enter a new relationship – I can’t understand why she could possibly think that I would ever leave her.

To me, leaving Christine would be the same thing as an archeologist discovering King Tut’s Tomb – and walking away from it. The same thing as an astronomer discovering life on another planet – and never telling a soul. The same thing as finding the lost remains of the Titanic – and leaving it to rest quietly – forever denying that you knew where it was. The same thing as a dying man in the desert finding an Oasis – and continuing to search for water. The same thing as getting offered the perfect job – and not taking it. Or in this case – finding the perfect person to give your heart to – and letting her walk away. That is why I can’t understand her fear – because if I left her, I would be doing just that – finding the perfect person to give my heart to – and letting her walk away.

I have spent less then six month’s time in this lady’s company – and she has brought me more joy, confidence – and enjoyment then women I have spent years with. Not to say that the ladies in my past were bad people – just that we as a couple did not share a fraction of the friendship, camaraderie – and love that Christine and I do.

It doesn’t matter if we are at Madison Square Garden for WWF Smakdown. It doesn’t matter if she is sleeping next to me when I write a column – like she is right now. And it doesn’t matter if we are lying on my couchbed next to each other eating junk food while watching videos – no matter what we are doing – we have a good time – enjoy each other’s company – and fall more deeply in love.

So considering that if I left Christine – I would hurt me as much as it hurt her – I really don’t see myself leaving Christine – because, as they say – when you have found what you are looking for – it’s time to stop looking.

I know I have been writing a lot about Christine lately – but love does that to a person.