A Penny For My Thoughts

Absence Really Does Make The Heart Grow Fonder

By Paul Wein

When I was taxiing on the runway of JFK Airport about to take off for Colorado on Wednesday night, I was the happiest person in the world. I was happy because I was finally getting away from everything. My jobs, my duties, my obligations – and everything else that I wanted so badly to get away from. But while I was happy to be heading to the other side of the country – there was one thing that I was leaving behind that I did not want to get away from – the one and only thing that I missed while I was on vacation – Christine.

No matter how much fun I was having in Colorado at the First Annual South Park Convention, no matter what I was doing – and no matter how happy I was to be on vacation for the first time in a long time – I was very sad to be away from her. And to my amazement – she missed me just as much.

I say my amazement because in my past, I have gone on vacation without the significant other I was with at the time. And during the vacation, the “I miss you” factor was hardly there on both counts. Sometimes I would go an entire day without calling the person I was with at the time – and sometimes, they would care less if I called them or not. But when I was in Colorado, I wanted to call Christine every day. And when I spoke to her on the phone – I could hear the sorrow in her voice that I was not there by her side. For the first time in my life – I was actually missed – and for the first time in my life – I actually missed the person I was away from.

No matter how many times we spoke during the weekend, she still sounded just as sad as the day that I left – and I was just as sad that I was not there by her side. Recently, she has been spending many weekends staying over my house, so we have gotten pretty used to sleeping next to each other. But while I have a Queen size bed – no bed is two thousand miles wide – so to spend an entire weekend and then some on opposite sides of the country really took a toll on our emotions. But at the same time – it showed us just how much we crave each other’s company.

In fact, I missed her so much that when Gabe and Doug were kind enough to pick me up at the airport at six o’ clock Monday morning – I asked them to stop at Christine’s house because I could not wait until Monday night to see her. I wanted to see her so bad that even if I got just one hug from her before she went to work – I would not have to wait one more entire day to wrap my arms around her. So even though the brief moment we saw each other before she headed off to work was just that – it was twelve hours less that I would have to wait to feel her arms around me.

After work, she came to my house and we spent Monday night together. As I showed her some of the things I brought back from Colorado with me – I realized that she was still in tears just as she was when I was away. When I asked her why – she told me that she is so happy to have me back in New York that she was crying tears of joy. How amazingly blessed I feel that someone who could have any man she wants missed me so much that she was in tears when I left – and still in tears when I returned home. I’ll admit that after my last relationship I once again swore off the idea of being involved with another woman – but I am so glad that I went against my idea of being single and decided to date Christine – because I have never been this happy, content, cared for, missed – and in love.

I don’t know what I did right in my life to have a woman like Christine fall in love with me – but I thank God every day that she did.

“For the longest time, playing games of Solitaire, taking my wine.
But now I’m with you baby, and I can dream out loud.
You’re as pretty as a picture, and you made me so proud.”

John Waite – How Did I Get By Without You?