A Penny For My Thoughts

She Believes In Me

By Paul Wein

In any relationship, there are times where one partner has to put up with something that they really do not want to, or tolerate something that they normally wouldn’t – but they do anyway because they believe in the love they feel for the person they are with.

In my life, I have tolerated a lot with the ladies I used to be with and in turn, I have asked them to put up with a lot as well. But I must tell you that from day one of my relationship with Christine, she has had to tolerate a lot when it comes to this insane life that I lead – and the amazing thing is – she has.

When it became clear that we had feelings for each other, I sat her down and told her that my life is not exactly “normal”. From having to do a Digest seven days a week, to having to do TV shoots once a week, to getting press calls at home on the weekends, my life differs greatly from the lives most other people lead. So when we discussed becoming a couple, I felt it was the right thing to do to tell her what she was getting in to before she got into it – and offer her the opportunity to say no now. Don’t get me wrong, by no means did I want her to say no to being my girlfriend – but if she was going to be my girlfriend – it was only fair for her to know what that comes with. Amazingly – she said that she feels so strongly for me that she said she was willing to put up with anything – and in the last few months – she has put up with more then any woman deserves to tolerate – and somehow – she’s still here.

From going away twice in the same month without her, to being in the same house with my ex-girlfriend, to not minding photo shoots of females in my house, to sitting with me while I do the South Park Digest, to so many other things that most other woman would have walked away from – she has shown me, through her tolerance for all of this and then some – that she truly loves me and that she is willing to live with the crazy life that I lead – and long as she lives with me.

I can not even put into words how grateful I am to Christine for being such an understanding, tolerant, and accommodating girlfriend. I can name a few women from my past that would have taken a chainsaw to me for even a fraction of the things that Christine puts up with – but in her own words, she feels the love that I have for her and knows that I want to be with her and her only – if she only knew how much.

All I know is that she is the most amazing woman I have ever met, and with each day that passes, she proves that more and more by being so tolerant, understanding – and most of all – supportive.

And she wonders why I want her and no one else.

“While she lays sleeping, I stay out late at night and play my songs.
And sometimes all the nights can be so long,
and it's good when I finally make it home, all alone.
While she lays dreaming, I try to get undressed without the light,
and quietly she says how was your night?
And I come to her and say, it was all right,
and I hold her tight.
And she believes in me, I'll never know just what she sees in me.
I told her someday if she was my girl, I could change the world,
with my little songs, I was wrong.
But she has faith in me, and so I go on trying faithfully.
And who knows maybe on some special night, if my song is right,
I will find a way, find a way...
While she lays waiting, I stumble to the kitchen for a bite.
Then I see my old guitar in the night,
just waiting for me like a secret friend, and there's no end.
While she lays crying, I fumble with a melody or two.
And I'm torn between the things that I should do,
and she says to wake her up when I am through…
God her love is true.”

Kenny Rogers – She Believes In Me