Considering the fact that my apparent theme for the year 2001 seems to be me getting re-acquainted with almost everyone from my past, that means that besides talking to past friends and co-workers – I have also been communicating with almost all of my ex-girlfriends as well. In my life, I have had four serious relationships in my life. Stacey was m first girlfriend, Lis was my first – and only wife, Lisa was my first live-in relationship, and Sandy was my most recent girlfriend – and amazingly in the last month – I have talked to all four of them.

The unbelievable fact that in the same month – and sometimes in the same day – I have talked to all four of the ladies that I have shared so much with has been both wonderful and painful at the same time. Hearing their voices and talking about “the good old days” with the women I once loved has brought back such a flood of emotions that I feel as if I am drowning in an ever-flowing river of my past.

So many emotions flood my head as I speak to these four past ladies in my life – love, sorrow, happiness – amazement, and so many other emotions drown me that when I hang up – I don’t know whether to smile or cry. Its so strange to talk to someone who once was your everything – and talking to four of them at once certainly makes me a candidate for a nervous breakdown. Don’t get me wrong, I love being able to talk to these ladies without having any animosity, anger – or sadness in our voices on either side and being able to be “adults” about what happened between us. It is just so strange that these four chapters of my life are coming together all at once. There are days when I spoke to all four of them in the same day. There are moments when I am speaking to one on the phone and IMing another – and there are times when I sit in my room all alone and can’t believe that all four of these special ladies in my life are, although a part of my life now – not what they once were.

Think about it. How would you feel if you talked to four people who separately were the most important people in your life all in the same day? Four special people who you gave years of your life, your love – and your heart to in the same day? Strange – isn’t it?

On one side, I am so happy that I can talk to Stacey, Lis, Lisa and Sandy and put aside any sadness and anger we may have toward each other, that we can take any negative feelings we may have had toward each other and sweep it under the carpet and be able to talk about our present and our futures with someone from our past. It is just weird and strange to go from talking to a woman I was once in love with in 1988 to a woman I was in love with only months ago, to a woman that I gave my vows to six years ago to someone I lived with for almost two years – talk about different parts of your pasts colliding at once.

I sincerely hope that Stacey, Lis, Lisa and Sandy can stay a part of my life – at least in the state they are in now. With Stacey married, Lis engaged, and Lisa and Sandy trying to restart their lives, these four wonderful women deserve nothing but the best in their lives. I thank them and thank God for the time that they were in love with me and will always cherish “our” time together, and I wish them nothing but luck and happiness with their future lives.

But if I may say so – having the four of them stand next to each other would make one hell of a picture.