As of late, my continuing battle with insomnia has now escalated into a full scale war – and last night, I was on the losing end of a bitter attack.

I was invited to a bunch of different places last night but instead decided to stay home and get some much needed R&R. So I watched a little TV, ate some pizza and headed up to bed at 9:00pm. As a started to doze off, I was happy that I was going to bed so early because I would actually be getting a good night’s sleep – or at least I thought – because instead of waking up at 5:30am fresh as a daisy – I woke up just two and a half hours later at 11:30pm – and stayed awake for the rest of the night.

I can not begin to describe how frustrating it was to toss and turn for four straight hours until 3:30am when I finally gave up and realized that I was not getting any sleep at all. No matter how comfortable I was, no matter what position I tried, or no matter how relaxed my body was – I couldn’t get to sleep even for a few minutes. I literally tossed and turned all night long from 11:30pm to 3:30am without even a minute worth of sleep.

The worst part is that no matter how badly I wanted to sleep, I couldn’t fall asleep. And even worse – there was nothing I could do to help my sleeplessness. What could I have done? Taped my eyes shut? All I could do is lie there and pray for my eyes to finally close and for sleep to finally take over – but that never happened.

I’m sure the recent events in my life are keeping me awake – or I just have too much on my mind, but whatever the reason for this insomnia is – it has to stop – and it has to stop now. My question is how?

Sleeplessness is not something you can cure like a headache. There is no pill that can take away the fact that you can’t sleep. Sleeping pills work for that one instance of sleeplessness – but the problem as a whole still remains. What happened to me last night shouldn’t happen to my worst enemy, and has never happened to me before, but waking up a few times a night is a daily thing for me. Truth be told – I can’t remember the last time I slept through an entire night without waking up at least once.

So when I tuck myself in tonight, I hope that I don’t spend the evening staring at the ceiling again – because I could really use some shut eye.