For sixteen days, from October 13th to October 28th, we had an absolute blast together – doing everything from going to Washington, D.C. to getting “married” at the Maryland Renaissance Festival – to seeing Saw IV the night it was released – to falling even deeper in love then we already were – if that is even possible. I have gone on many vacations in my life, but I must tell you that the time I spent with Julie recently was the best time away from home that I have ever had…

…and now, I am back home – without her – and I miss her more than she or anyone else will ever know.

In the past, I have had two “Long Distance Relationships” prior to Julie – one with a woman named Summer who lives in Chickamauga, Georgia – and one with a “girl” named Mary who lives in Tampa, Florida. I went to see both of those ladies in their hometowns – and when I left them – I did not even remotely feel the emptiness that I am feeling right now. Sure, I was sad when I left them and felt lonely without them – but the fact that I am back in my hometown amongst all of my belongings and familiar surroundings – yet still feel like something is missing – is a clear indication that Julie means more to me than both of those women combined ever did.

As early as four days before my unfortunate departure, Julie was already crying because I was leaving – and the day I was scheduled to leave – she cried enough tears to fill a five-gallon water bottle. While it meant a lot to me that she was so sad to see me go (as was I, although I was the one who tried to remain strong for both of us) – it broke my heart to see her so sad. I want to see many different facial expressions on her beautiful face – happiness, laughter, surprise, and excitement – I never want to see her cry. It was so hard to sit there as her mouth quivered and the tears poured down her face like a melting ice cube as she said the words, “Please stay.” I would have given anything to be able to do so – but, as always, life beckons – and I had to leave her and go home in order to get my life ready for her to join it up here with me – which is both of our main priorities.

All the time I was there and she did something nice for me, I would always thank her – which garnered the response, “Oh baby, you deserve it.” Hardly. If anything, she is the one who deserves my gratitude, chivalry, generosity, romance, love, honesty, trust, loyalty, friendship – and honor. I am the one who should be grateful that I have been blessed with such a wonderful and incredible woman to call me her boyfriend – and she is the one that deserves to be treated like the Queen that she is.

We plan to see each other again in nine days and to be honest – that is the only caveat allowing me to keep it together until I can wrap my arms around her once again. It will be a tough road until then – but when that day comes – I can take solace in the fact that she is by my side once again – and when that day comes – the world will be right once again.

Until then – my love.