Dear Doug,

I can't believe it has been two years since you were so viciously taken from us. I remember that morning as if it were yesterday. I picked you up and we drove to work together as we always did, sharing our thoughts and rants over coffee. I remember dropping you off on the corner of Chambers and Church Streets, and hearing you ask me if I would join you for lunch at our favorite Chinese restaurant that we affectionately called "Noodle." Little did I know that would be the last time I ever saw you - and that neither of us would ever make that lunch - or any lunch thereafter.

If I did know that I would never have the opportunity to talk to you again, I would have told you what an amazing person you were. I would have thanked you for encouraging me through good times, and helping me through tough ones. I would have praised you for being a selfless, caring soul that would have helped your worst enemy - and I would have begged you not to go to work that ill-fated morning. I miss you so much in my life Doug, and I miss not being able to share new things in my life with you. I know you would have loved Beavis. I know that you would have enjoyed the show Greg The Bunny, which Woody and I frequently watch and enjoy. I know that you would have liked my new apartment. And I know that you would have been at Wrestlemania XX with me next March.

I know that everyone - especially you - will think I am crazy for saying this, but I am so sorry. I harbor a tremendous amount of guilt when it comes to your death. After all, it was me that dropped you off that day. I could have woken up late, or forgot to give you a lift that morning. I also feel tremendously guilty for taking you to see my heart doctor, because he convinced you to stop smoking. Chances are that if you did not stop smoking - you would have been downstairs smoking a cigarette when those terrorist bastards used that plane as a weapon against you, everyone in that Tower - and everyone in America. So I hope you can accept my apology for those two mistakes that I feel I made and am responsible for.

If I know you Doug, you are running things up there. You probably have a VIP suite and everything you want at your fingertips. And if I know you - you are watching over all of your loved ones and making sure that they also have everything that they want. But unfortunately, the one thing that we all want is the one thing none of us can never have - you in our lives once again.

Please know that I think of you every day, and I pray to God everyday that you are resting in peace. I also pray that one day, when it is my turn to leave this Earth, that we will see each other again - and continue the golden friendship that I was blessed with for far too short a time.

Rest well my friend - and God Bless you.

Paul